That is not an easy quesion to which to articulate an answer, but I would say that I am happy for the gift of life, the opportunity to experience this moment in my own unique way; and happy to have the incredible freedom to manifest that which brings me happiness.
Steve

Like most people, I often have a list of self improvements to work on- eat more healthy food, give up coffee, exercise.  I usually have good but sporadic success when I put my mind to it, but am often struck by the irony of why doing the right thing takes so much effort sometimes.  If it is the right thing for the body or soul, shouldn't it feel easier to make these choices?  About three weeks ago, I found myself at Borders staring at a yoga CD.  I hadn't done yoga since college, but recalled that when I did it, things that had seemed to require effort to improve suddenly seemed to "fix" themselves effortlessly.  I bough the CD and started practising.  With a few days I lost all urge to drink coffee, and quit cold turkey with none of the usual headaches I had before when trying to quit.  I say "trying" because in the past I had to force myself not to drink it, but never lost the desire or craving.  By the end of the first week my appetite had been cut in half.  I was not doeting, I simply wanted less food.  also my food choices became much healthier- and again, not because I was forcing healthy food down my throat, but because I genuinely wanted to eat it.  It has just been three weeks now, but I have a new sense of confidence about my ability to continue to improve myself this time.

All of this caused me to wonder why, before my "chance" encounter at Borders, were unhealthy choices so easy to make?  What was it about how I defined myself that made unhealthy food feel so right to me?  A lack of exercise and high fat, high calory foods caused me to have low energy, but was that precisely in keeping with who I thought I was?  Were habits that contributed to low energy in perfect harmony with my inner vision of myself?  If so, then for me personally I had to do something that changed my inner perception, my inner vibration that self-defined me, before I could be successful in changing my habits.  Are our inner self-perceptions so powerful that they can only be changed from the inside out, and not the outside in?  Mu daily habits do not define me, especially if they are in conflict with my self-perception.  In fact, they are probably doomed to failure if they are in contrast with my self definition.  I have found it exceedingly difficuly to change who I want myself to be by behaving differently, but so far quite easy to change how I behave yy changing my self definition.  For me, yoga seems to help this process.  I guess this is why so many self help programs stress inner visualization, for they know that the image must change before the habits can change.  I am a devoted student of the Seth books, and one of Seth's most basic tenants is that the reality that we encounter in this physical world is the reality that we expect to encounter in our inner self.  This process has given me much to think about, as far as where my efforts should be placed, or at least in what order they should be attended to.